man everything is so ONGOING. i have dark and huge bags under my eyes that will probably NEVER go away and will only get worse [it's so bad that i'm even considering wearing makeup to conceal it]. i've been trying to get sleep but everything is like fighting for my time [and i don't mean that in a popular context or any conceited way at all].
today's schedule looked like this:
8:30am-wake up to use water because water was going to be shut off at 9am so had to get ready before that
9am-devos but so much to do that i feel i don't have enough time to really dive into prayer
10am-write Epic email to inform when we're meeting and include some announcements
11am-eat a snack but not enough time to make lunch
12pm-worked on something
1pm-pick up girls for women's time but ended up only having to get one girl. we still had fun and bought matching necklaces, ate yummy tacos, and went antique store shopping :O]
3pm-drop girl off and pick up other friend to take them to campus
4pm-figure out rent, pay rent, add money to laundry card
5pm-frantically work on getting study guide questions done to turn them in so i can receive other answers from study group
6pm-drive a friend back to her house that's super far from campus, get gas, rush home, drop off roomie and pick up guitar
7pm-practice/prepare for worship Thursday with Joel [and chris and aaron ahah]
11pm-worship prepping took forever and left my fingers sore and throat tired, ate some starbucks sandwiches, quick laughs with eric, roomies, and josh
12am-facebook break to relieve myself of reality
1am-homework but still breaks to check email, event i have to attend tomorrow, figure out schedule tomorrow
2am-wanting to shower but freaking water is not producing hot water, dreading tomorrow knowing i have class&will fall asleep, water is going to be shut off again from 9am-6pm and will have an equally if not more BUSY schedule tomorrow!!
oh my gosh! i almost want to say i want out. but it's just my tiredness speaking. this is when i realize i'm relying on people [for happiness, energy, etc] and time to turn to God and repent, receive, and release.
Lord, i need this verse to come true in my life again- "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14:27
p.s. if you're reading this, please pray for me :O]
hello!
ReplyDeletethinking and praying for ya :)