so i thought i was done with this feeling but it's still coursing through me.
having two specific ministries on my heart makes me feel so divided.
on one hand, there is a ministry where i attend class, hang out with, and live with it's people.
on the other hand, there is a ministry where i invest, serve, and fellowship with it's people.
the first ministry i was placed in to help me grow and learn from others.
the second ministry i was called to so i could serve, encourage, and be challenged in.
these ministries meet on different days during the week but when there are those events where they occur on the same day or weekend, i always have to choose!!
now of course i automatically have to choose the side of where God has specifically placed a calling on my life. But it is always so extremely difficult for me to not think about the ministry that first made an impression in my heart and will always be my home no matter what.
it doesn't help either when the people i live with and hang out with more, talk about the ministry's upcoming events and tell me to go but when they find out i can't, they try to think of alternative methods of my attending but it puts more stress on having to think about both events and most of the time, i can only go to one. so choosing has to be done.
gahhh i know it shouldn't be this hard. especially when God has called me to serve in one over the other.
i'm sure there is a bigger lesson to be learned behind this than what i can see.
i look forward to discovering it along the path of following Him and trusting Him....
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