God has released me. these past few weeks have been really stressful and because of that, i've been building up guilt and trying to do everything by myself. partly because i didn't realize i was taking everything on myself, i didn't know who i should talk to, and i thought it was normal. so i felt really burdened.
Well, yesterday, at AACF, i took advantage of the altar call. it was pretty crazy how things worked out cause i was able to go to aacf for a few minutes and stayed for worship for 2 songs. then i had to go to my class for an hour and then came back to aacf. everytime i come back, i feel i always catch the best part of the message [cause it's past the building up and into the nitty gritty].
the speaker was addressing how we are a family under God and that if someone asks us how we're doing, we shouldn't lie and say we're doing ok when really we want to break down and cry. then he continued talking about God's astounding grace and how He loves us so much. Then he went into prayer and prayed "i don't know if there's anyone hurting here tonight or going through a hard time, but God knows and he cares so much..." that's when i started to sob. i couldn't hold it all in anymore. i didn't care who was sitting next to me [like if they saw me crying] or what would happen. the Lord was just touching my heart.
as soon as he gave the usual altar call that there are leaders in the back ready to pray for us, i went to go find one.
Lori was the closest to where i was sitting and she's been such a great sister, i felt safe to approach her.
she could tell right away that something was wrong and asked if i was ok to which i honestly answered no and then continued crying again. she just held me and prayed over me. that was just what i needed and God knew that. during that time, i felt really ministered to and was able to release a lot of guilt i was feeling, and other things i had been holding onto.
after yesterday, it was just confirmed that aacf is my fellowship. epic is my ministry.
God has blessed me with aacf with the family ready to laugh, joke, pray, and have fun with me. :O] i'm not saying that epic doesn't offer any of that but i view it in a different light.
anyways, the whole point of sharing this is just to continue to encourage you guys [who read this] to follow God, be REAL with Him and yourself and others, and that HAVING FAITH TAKES YOU TO AMAZING HEIGHTS.
i heard this song again by Kutless today that really mirrored what i feel:
What Faith Can Do-
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining
I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing
[the rest of the song is pretty long but you can google it]
to God be ALL praise!!
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