i have butterflies just thinking about it

c-rap!! i am flying by myself for the first time tomorrow. i sound like such a kid but i'm really nervous. i already don't like flying because i get air sick and it's just not a pleasant experience. but flying by myself magnifies my worries. gahh this just shows i have a lot to surrender to God.

i am SO super PSYCHED for this week!! going to IHOP is something i wanted to do since last year after hearing about it from joshua and just hearing a little about it from other people we know that serve there. last year i went to missouri too but it was for Urbana. it's funny how i've been going to missouri for all these major conferences. i'm not looking forward to the cold weather although snow is always so pretty to see covering the floor. and i bought new boots for it too [and the rain this past week]. :O)

what i'm looking forward to the most is just having time set apart for the Lord to just sit with Him and be ministered to and spoken to. i really really need to hear from Him. i thought i had an option set for what i could do after graduating but that went away recently so now i am back to square one and have no idea what God wants me to do. therefore, i am really looking forward to seeking Him with TONS of time set apart for that this coming week. i also am excited for the 24/7 worship. how awesome is that?! and i heard they do prophecies too. i am really interested in seeing how that goes. it's funny cause i'm mostly anticipating all of the things IHOP does on a regular basis more than what they have set up specifically for the conference.

sure, it'll be cool to listen to the speakers and meet new people but that's something that is not really a priority to me. i've been planning on going to this since the summer. my dad prepares for these things way in advance and asked me if i wanted to go then. since then, i've been thinking of all the things i am looking forward to and anticipating, while at the same time leaving room for what God has planned for me. or actually, i guess it should be the other way around. totally surrendering everything and just waiting on His timing. i'm just plain excited!!

please pray for me that i will be able to find my terminal gates and everything else on time. i'm only bringing one personal item and a carry-on because check in was too expensive. but i actually was able to fit all my clothes! yay!
secondly, please pray that God will speak to me and really reveal His will for me. i just need a direction.

thanks for reading!

praise God for this awesome opportunity!! :OD