anywho i had more time to myself since class was not in session.
i caught up in reading everyone's mission updates. it's so amazing to see what God's doing and how he's moving in everyone's lives. Crazy how good he is at multitasking like that :O)
i must admit i am quite disappointed and jealous that i was not able to take part in these amazing happenings around the world.
and then it hit me...
all of these events are happening because of God. NOT because of us humans.
These servants have dedicated their summer to follow God and to reach out to lives they are being directed towards. It may seem like some of the things that are happening are because of their actions but really it's because of the Holy Spirit's working.
I realized my wanting to go on a mission trip was full of selfish reasons: wanting to travel, wanting to be with friends, wanting to be used so I could get the glory.
yet, that's not what mission trips are about.
they are about fulfilling the call that God has specifically placed in each of our hearts.
i guess this summer God wanted me at home.
for what reasons?
that i am still trying to figure out.
but i trust He has a plan for me. sometimes it just gets frustrating...but here's a good reminder:
"I will declare that your love stands firm forever, that you established your faithfulness in heaven itself." Psalm 89:2
p.s. disabling my facebook wall hasn't really helped. notifications are still tempting me. and i don't think it's possible to get rid of all notifications [i've already tried]. so i have a new idea brewing.
"i guess this summer God wanted me at home... for what reasons?"
ReplyDeletemaybe to teach you what you shared earlier in your post.. the true meaning of missions.. so that one day when you do get a chance to serve overseas, you'll go with a heart that is pure and motivated only out of love for God =)
and maybe to participate in missions through prayer =)))